Nothing Personal!

A lot of things that makes me crazy
A lot of things that makes me weary
I don't know if I am helping myself
All I know right now is that I need help!
I wanted to scream, but I choose to be quiet
I just don't know if they are willing to listen to my crying
I am scared to let down the pride that I've got
But I am more afraid of putting my family's name on the spot
I have brought them to much humiliation
I don't know how to stop doing this addition
I am not an addict
I am not at critic
I am not afraid to speak out
But I am scared to tell it and shout
I don't have the guts of telling such
I maybe you say a coward
But I guess this is my reward
I am not perfect
But all the more I am imperfect because of my non sense mistakes
I keep on asking God for miracles
But I guess, He won't listen in my despair.
Should I be thankful that this is me?
Or should I regret the life that you gave me for free?
I have been a fool until now
And I will always be no matter when and how
I am not getting young anymore
The more I grew older the more I grew colder
I have a lot of troubles that I left behind
I don't want my parents to know that I am struggling in the inside
I don't want them to again suffer from deep agony and headaches because of me
I just want to keep this on my own for them to be free
I--I have filled myself with I.
I have be I--no one has been we!
I am now empty
But I am shameful for you to fill me joyfully
I don't know who can be the person that I can turn to
Because I have already turned my back on you
Shame is like a leech on my body
It is too painful to keep it away from me
I have brought myself to its deeper misery
I guess dying is the best option, because it is free
Anyone can judge you when you make a mistake
Anyone can hurt you when you have been verdict
Anyone can turn there backs on you because they are ashamed of you
Anyone can be against you because they really don't love you
I hate doing the things that I have done before
But yet I ended up doing the same mistake over and over
It is like I am on an endless roller coaster
I don't want to keep on pretending that I am okay
I am sick and tired of it to say.
I am fed up
I am about give up
Can anyone please give me a sigh of hope?
Can anyone give me a love that is from above?
I don't know if He still hears me.
Because I have been a rebellious since I was a kid.
I want to give in
I want to give up everything.
I am nothing
I am nobody
I am not that somebody
I am not others what they think I am
I am not the person that you thought I am
I am not the person that can reach high mountains
I am just an average person trying to find its way home.
I am lost
I have suffered
I am hiding
I am uncured
I am searching
I am not a blessing
I am a burden
I am a pretender
I am a liar
I am a cheater
I am lazy
I am a fighter
I am a backbiter
I am a destroyer
I am killer of my own
I am a discourager
I am not perfect
I am not your friend
I am an offender
I am a quitter
I am a loser
I am a chicken
I am what can possibly think.
That is me.
Nothing so special, no potential, better to be quiet then die.

BEST among the REST

Friends are one of the reasons why we exist, why we continue on living, why we enjoy life, why we love life and learn to understand others and enjoy the uniqueness of an individual. We cannot leave without them for they are the ones that we can run to when we are afraid to open some troubles to our parents or sisters and brothers, share the happy moments with them that makes it unforgettable and many more.
I am blessed to have friends that I can count on and friends that are willing to listen to me. There might be times that we build misunderstandings, arguments and fed up by some non sense drama of one another—still we enjoy the company of each other because they are what I call as “BEST among the REST”.
They may not be perfect and many might be insecure about them, still that would not be a reason for me to turn my back from them for they never turned their backs from me. They taught me how to value people more and how to appreciate relationship for my eyes are opened of how valuable it is.
Saying thank you or affirming them is not enough for me to tell how blessed I am to have them and influence me in ways that I don’t know. I am blessed and grateful to have you gals in my life. You taught me how to take a step of maturity in me that made me stronger, tougher and understandable.
You might hale yourselves as “buang-buang”, “gaga”, “adik”, “lutaw”, “gwapo suppose to be “gwapa”, and many more—still I will thank God for you gals… :))
I AM HAPPY AND BLESSED TO HAVE YOU TO THE MAX IN MY LIFE. :)

THANKS GALS :)

YOU BELONG! :))

We are all potential offenders, no one is exempted because no matter what you do, you will be hurt, you will hurt others--you can offend them, you might be offended; you might notice it but unintentionally just do it. This is something that is a fact that we should realize and accept no matter what. People that we trust the most might disappoint us, might fail us, might not be always there for us... but let us always keep in mind that in times of loneliness there is our Creator who is willing to listen, to understand and will always accept you as who you are because YOU are LOVED by HIM.
You can be who you are for you cannot hide anything from Him. Say it or keep it, still He knows it :))

That's why, let us keep in mind, HE is there no matter what :))

Expression of a Broken Hearted

Hero (Poem)

You created a world that no one can enter
A world that you made that fits you, which made you happier
But, little by little you forgot about others care
because everyday you care about your selfish despair

You enjoyed writing anything on your wrist
Using anything sharp that creates a piece.
Enjoying that you don't care what you have done
Doing it, is just a lot of fun.

People kept saying," stop that, you're not helping yourself"
But the thing is, have they done something to make you love yourslef?
They say things which they thought can help and will make you realize
But what they don't understand is that, they don't know how to empathize.

You love it when rain pours down
It fills your face that was covered with frown
When dark fill the night
You just love doing nothing and having no fright

You are tired filling in the gap
What you need is just a simple backtap
You don't need things updated
What you need are people that can be your hero

Anyone can be a hero in one way or another
Don't let anyone think dark and let them suffer
You can be a hero in a simple way
Just be there, be a friend to them in anyways

Everyday that you just take this for granted
Another soul in one way or another, in this world; departed
Stop acting as if you don't know that there are people dying
And make excuses saying, that you don't know how to feel their feeling

You can be a hero
Just start in level zero
Ask Him, he will give you wisdom
And there, you are ready to say anything with freedom

You can be a hero
When you stand to make a choice not to end your own
So that you can be an example to others that really needs to be drawn
You can be a hero, when you make things right

You can be a hero
By throwing the pills that you are about to drink
You can be a hero
By making your mind clean from any form of killing one self

Once you make a choice to stand not to kill you
Then you are a hero
It maybe a simple thing or nothing to others
But to Him, it is an example that others should foster

You can be a hero
Just enjoy life and learning to its meaning
Let others be informed that He is the reason why you enjoy living
You can be a hero to yourself as well as to everyone else.



By: H.I.M. 1993

Experience as a NEW BLOGGER :)

It has been a long time that I wanted to have my own blog--and this time I am grateful to have this CA3 subject to where we are required to make our own blog. Now, that I have my own blog, I have to keep it updated and if possible I have to post something new for it not to be expired or to be deleted or something.

I made this not just because we are required to do so but because I want to use this for my personal use, I want to use my blog for me to express and let others read of what I feel, what I want to express, what I wanted to say about something or anyone. This blog will surely help me grow in my thinking  skills and writing skills also. The challenge for me now is that, I have to keep this blog updated, always to be checked and many more. This might take me time to do that, but it is not a problem since I am enjoying and not enduring just for the sake of our major subject. I am looking forward to keep this blog because through this blog I can be who I am for I express myself as a blogger. :)

Kapuso Caroling Competition November 19, 2010

 

 It was the Kapuso Caroling Competition finals held at the KCC Mall Convention last November 19, 2010 (Friday) from 5-9 in the evening.

We the 4th year and 2nd year AB Mass Comm students of Ramon Magsaysay Memorial Colleges where given the opportunity to become a part of the production staffs of the said event. Our team leader was Mia Marie Rocacorba 4th year student to made sure that each one of us has an assigned responsibility for us to do with the help of course of the production head coming from GMA, Ms. Eunice Ang.

It was a caroling competition that was competed by 7 seven elementary schools here in GenSan city.
This was the 3rd year where in the GMA had this event. It was joyfully participated by the Generals that made this event a successful one.

This is an event never to be forgotten to me, an event that made me realize that procrastination is out of the topic and it will not help you to succeed whatever you are aiming for.
I love this event, it is an event never to be forgotten.

Thank YOU!

Thank you for teaching me to become me
Thank you for breaking me heart to three
Thank you for challenging me
Thank you for leaving me
Thank you for making me realized that I am not alone
Thank you for perfecting the blend in my ugly voice tone
Thank you for listening to me even though I am imperfect
Thank you for giving me that gift even if you know in the end it will end up wrecked.
Thank you for giving to me hope
Thank you for giving to me love
Thank you for giving to me trust
Thank you for forgiving my mistakes in the past
Thank you for that free smile
Thank you for those shouts and criticism that in my past was piled
Thank you for taking out the beast in me
Thank you for setting me free
Thank you that you have turned your back
Thank you for giving me the reason to thank
Thank you for not listening
Thank you for playing my heart
Thank you for keeping me waiting
Thank you for giving me the reason on holding
Thank you for filling my head with truths
Thank you for telling lies to me
Thank you for breaking my trust to pieces
Thank you for not making me smile
Thank you for destroying my day
Thank you for hating me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for taking granted of me
Thank you for the rejections I get
Thank you for the disbelief facial reactions you gave me
Thank you for discouraging me
Thank you for deciding for me
Thank you for rising an eyebrow to me
Thank you for letting me borrow money
Thank you for making me laugh
Thank you for teaching to keep on wearing that mask
Thank you for teaching me to fall in love
Thank you for teaching me fight against you
Thank you for saying those words
Thank you for wiping my tears
Thank you for dedicating your life to me
Thank you for running away and not talking to me
Thank you for becoming my shoulder
Thank you for becoming my real friend
Thank you for the betrayal
Thank you for the truth
Thank you for the pain and spank
Thank you for letting me be afraid of you
Thank you for teaching me illusion
Thank you for teaching me love the unlovable
Thank you for accepting me
Thank you for not to pity on me
Thank you for breaking the barriers
Thank you for opening my eyes
Thank you for you voice
Thank you for the time
Thank you for those laughs
Thank you for I have you
Thank you for telling me I am destined for greatness
Thank you for praying to me endlessly
Thank you for catching me when I fall
Thank you keeping me hold the rope of faith
Thank you that you are my conscience
Thank you that you are my accountable partner
Thank you that you are my sister
Thank you that you are my brother
Thank you that you are approachable
Thank you that you have changed
Thank you for punching me in the face
Thank you for slapping me
Thank you for not talking to me in days or even months or years
Thank you for fooling me
Thank you for appreciating me
Thank you for challenging me
Thank you that you have discriminated me
Thank you for not trusting me
Thank you for being sarcastic
Thank you for being sweet to me
Thank you for saying I love you or take care to me
Thank you for remembering me
Thank you for leading me
Thank you for teaching me
Thank you for influencing me
Thank you for holding your hand to mine
Thank you for opening your self to me
Thank you for being a comfort zone
Thank you for those walkathon drama
Thank you for guiding me
Thank you for understanding me
Thank you to you
Thank you to me
Thank you that you are my father
Thank you that you are my mother
Thank you that you are my classmates
Thank you that you are my enemies
Thank you that you are my churchmates
Thank you that you are my pastors
Thank you that you are schoolmates
Thank you that you are my neighbor
Thank you that you are my might
Thank you that I am at home at my home
Thank you for the consequences

I thank God for all of these.
No one is perfect, everyone will be hurt in one way or another, no one shall live alone because no one can survive this world without the help of the another.
Whatever you might be going through right now, love life, love people, love God. Accept the fact that you will be hurt, that you will succeed, that you will fail, that you will be left alone, that people will make fun of you, that people will never always understand you.
In this world of imperfect, in this place that people are potential offenders, in our marketplaces that needs your help in one way or another--perfection is not needed here, all we need is an unconditional love that everyone could give, less pride and let understanding and patience spread all over the world for peace to reach our hearts and for people to understand why God is letting us go through this. He is not the reason why we suffer but He can be the reason why we should be joyful in times we are enduring.


THANK HIM!
You might be enduring, thank Him, you might be enjoying, thank Him.
Everyday, thank Him.

For the First Time :)

I am Anthea Isabel Manalo. This is my first time that I will be concentrating myself in blogging for me to develop and express myself using this blog. I have a lot of rooms to grow for me as a new and a beginner in this field. I am eager to learn, I am eager to be challenged, I am eager to grow for me to be the person that God wants me to become. I doing and created this blog for me to explore all the more the beauty of internet surfing and the beauty of what it feels like to be a blogger. I am happy that this will be a part of my journey and this will be a part of my chapter in life.